Your insecurities are showing!

I don't know if anyone remembers that joke "hey your epidermis is showing" how we rushed and covered up b/c we didn't know that our epidermis meant our skin. that somehow by covering up the shame of our epidermis would not be noticed. I've been feeling lately that people are shouting "hey your insecurities are showing" and I rush to cover them up. It's like i'm not human or I want to appear like this superwoman with no insecurities.

The truth is sometimes I'm racked with insecurities..about love about life about weight. It can get overwhelming at times when I forget who I am. Ive started this new mental exercise with my insecurities that has really helped me. I think about my old self and why my old self had whatever insecurity I'm battling then I think about my new self the one crucified with Christ and I think about all the things he says about me...how much he loves me. and I go back and forth til I know which one is the truth and which one is the lie. Today I'm struggling with insecurities but I also know today is also temporary. This too shall pass. God Bless you.

thought for today

i know you believe, you understood what you think i said but i'm not sure that what you heard is what i meant.

The irony of men and marriage

So the essence of this blog is for me to monologue on what's running in and out of my mind. I don't write much because I feel like i'm talking to myself but I need an outlet and will soon post this on facebook for all 769 of my fb friends to see and enjoy.

Now that i'm past that. I want to discuss the irony of men and marriage. I was reading an interview someone at CNN was doing with the author of "Eat, Pray Love" and she had been doing a study on marriage. One discovery that she made was that men benefit from marriage. Married men live longer, are richer and more happy than single men. The thing that struck me the most in her answer was. Men end up happier in marriage while women end up not so much. It seems that women enter marriage with some expectations of what it will be like and men enter with no expectations at all. The ironic part of it all according to the interview is that most men need to be dragged kicking and screaming into marriage.

In my lifelong quest for irony I always wondered why this is the case. I didn't need a author to quote research at me to know that men are happier in marriage that women. But as my worldview in changing I have to ask myself with Jesus in it is marriage good for both male and females or is it still lopsided as it is in the world?

More exploring on my ideas on marriage are going to happen. I hope people are praying for marriages now. I don't know but the institution of marriage has been on my mind lately especially the crumbling of it. Maybe it's because we seek to be happy and not holy. MOre thoughts to come later. Bedtime.