Honesty...can you handle it?

The Movie: A Few Good Men" The scene: The lawyer played by Tom Cruise yelled to the man on the stand played by Jack Nicholson "Give me the truth, I want the truth" The general yells back "You can't handle the truth"

The scene played out the way we treat truth these days. We doll it out when we think people can handle it and keep it to ourselves when it seems to harsh or it doesn't fit in line with how we want to portray ourselves.

It amazing when I see the magnitudes of lies and half-truths masquerading as niceties. Why don't you just tell her please by another shirt that one make you look pregnant (and you're so not!) Why let your friend buy the ugly shirt all because she is love with it and you want to be "nice" don't we see that niceness kills.

I'm not saying be cruel and say hurtful things. I'm just saying honesty is not morally right it is also highly efficient. You tell the truth..it hurts and true some people can't handle the truth. But as long as the intent isn't to bruise and hurt and malign the truth is the best policy.

I have my own policy with the truth. If telling someone the truth gives even an ounce of pleasure..I don't do it. It has crossed the line into cruel category that I don't want to live in.

I believe that if the world were to become more truth tellers we wouldn't be so bruised and battered when someone tells us the truth. Also we would know how to do it not keep the truth bottled up so much inside that when we finally get fed up it comes out in one angry sweep.

Don't keep it in...let the truth out.

Simple truth for today: Writing a paper at 1am is a bad idea...you wake up with a jumbled mess on your hands.

If I were a bird...

If you were a bird, what kind of bird would you be or would you be satisfied just being a bird..nature allowing you to fly. Go south when it's cold north when it hot. We are more than birds. We should be happy that we are more than birds but some-days I find myself thinking..What if I were a bird.

These lyrics popped into my head as I was writing a paper today from one of my favorite songs.

I can't stand to fly

I'm not that naive

I'm just out to find the better part of me

I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane

More than some pretty face beside a train

It's not easy to be me

It may sound absurd but don't be naive

Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed but can't you concede

Even heroes have the right to dream

It's not easy to be me

I can't stand to fly

I'm not that naive

Men weren't meant to ride

With cloud between their knees

I'm only a man

with a funny red sheet

I'm only a man

looking for a dream

In my case I'm only a woman looking for a dream but lately I've been thinking have I lost that naiveness that allows us to have dreams. To think about the future as though we are birds but still keep in mind we are just men and woman looking for something. I've lost it. I don't know where to find it. I keep forgetting that I will keep making mistakes, I will have to keep fighting not to lose myself in all the world has to offer and follow a dream even if i don't know what that dream is.

I keep reminding myself about some of the simple truths, some I already know and some I just keep learning with each new day.

Simple truth for today:

Men Kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn't seem to crack. Woman treat it like glass and it goes to pieces.

Random Thoughts

It seems that there are dreams that I never thought I would lose are tossed along the way

The past is never far. Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?

Don't it make it sad to know that life is more than who we are?

Reruns are becoming our history.

Is it Destiny?

One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it.

Destiny is defined as a pre-determined course of events. I often dwell on this more often than I should. I think about the road that I have taken and whether or not there is a pre-determined course of events or plan that is unfolding.

I thought that by now I would be on my way to marriage I would be realizing my dream of Getting my PhD in Biomedical Engineering and be so far away from Gainesville Florida that I would miss it. It seems that that was not the plan.

I'm nowhere near marriage, I'm working on a 2nd Bachelor's degree this time in Civil Engineering and I still Live in Gainesville, Florida.

But this leads me to several conversations I have had over the past 10 years both with myself and others that lead me to believe that it was part of my destiny to be where I am.

My dad told me to switch to civil engineering 6 years ago when I decided that I didn't want to be a doctor, he told me it was a good back up plan..what did i do? I didn't listen. 5 years after that I entered UF for the second time to work on a degree in what? that's right Civil Engineering. I'm doing decently in it and I like it much better than Biological Engineering. But was it my destiny?

Also as for Marriage, In high school I never thought I would get married until I was at least 28 so now what's the rush? I don't

know

So once again this quote One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it. tends to explain it all. I avoid my destiny but I meet it anyways. But somehow I can't wait to see what the future holds.

Semi-Charmed Kinda of Ironic Life

I have so much to say but not enough patience and sit down and write. I have so much to say but no one to read what I have to say. I guess that is why I do not have the patience to sit down and write a blog.

With that being said I'm gonna revamp this blog and be more consistent and actually adversite the blog via Facebook. this is kinda of scary considering I actually don't know how many people read this blog or if what I have to say is at all important.

I'm also working on a project for next year.. the next year..May 6 2011- May 6 2012 year 26 is what I'll call it. My mom got married at the age of 26. Not that I'm going to go find a guy and get married but I want to do the things I said I would do before I get married. The years seem to be coming so quickly that I don't even have time to think and I'm wasting so much time. I'm tired of living a semi-charmed ironic life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jne9t8sHpUc

yep I've offically entered rambling. so signing off to go finish my homework.