Losing you is effortless.

And suddenly you've become a part of the past..you're becoming the part that don't last..I'm losing you and it's effortless.
Today my thoughts settled on friendships. Losing friendships is so effortless. People become part of the past quickly when no effort is put in by either party to repair or maintain the friendship..it goes the way of the past like ship in water. Floating effortlessly by.
I'm typically of the school of friendship that it takes effort to repair and maintain and I usually repair and maintain even if it seems like the other person doesn't care as much as me about whatever situation lack of situation just lapse of time that is occurring.
 But lately I have been atypical in my approaches to friendship. I actually don't like it. But something in me is dying and I don't know what to do about it. it's a part that hurts me more than it hurts others, maintaining friendships is hard, soul crushing work at times, but the outcome of it was usually rewarding. So even though it hurt to be that person, I was okay being that person. Right now I'm not that person. I don't even know how to be that person. Something broke and I've entered a territory that I don't like being in.
Not to say I don't have friends..I'm just not doing much paddling. I got to snap out of it before Project 26 starts.
Project 26...More on that later and I'm looking for a better name.
Simple Truth/thought for Today: If things are not going well with you, begin your effort at correcting the situation by carefully examining the service you are rendering, and especially the spirit in which you are rendering it.